Monday, December 14, 2009 at Monday, December 14, 2009
yay finally can blog liao lol...it had being iced age ever since i last posted...happen alot of thing this holiday more than last year lol,met more friends,had more fun,more tired cos alway 12plus 1plus then reach home lol...miss some of my friends,very long never see them liao,so sian lor alot of my friends can colour their hair,only i had to colour black,but never mind as long as my father is happy...
lol friday getting result liao,wish that my afford can push me up to sec 5...lol now very confuse...
around 10 to 13 days more can dont need work liao,a bit sad but also no choice,the aunty can really piss me off sometime,but in the end forget it,use to it liao la...hope next year find work can dont need go back there liao,is super tired n scary...
i dont know whether should leave badminton,cos badminton is so-called my life,but then it crash to my timing n my plan...i do like badminton very much,but then i dont feel that playing badminton or doing sport is my job or my purpose in life,just feel that i can do something even better...maybe i now just play badminton for fun,as really cant get back all those feel of playing badminton liao,but really happy that my friend had grow so much stronger n better in badminton which had overtake me,do want to train n win him,but no matter how i play,i just feel tat there is no soul in me when playing,skill still there,smile still there,but my heart is gone...hais last time till now alway chonging,training like crazy the me had gone,life seem much better,no stress,no pain,just laught n smile...but badminton still attract my attention,just played with some guys below my buliding,lol really it not me man,i never ever love to play badminton in outdoors...hais just so confuse...
