Tuesday, October 20, 2009 at Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Today went out with my friends n their classmate,only spend 10dollar,hmmm quite good,must spend less...
Morning went to eat breakfast with my family,then told my stepmother about the bike thing,she said no choice buy liao still can stop meh...just felt so sian,maybe just tell my mother about not giving me the bike ba,as my dad health is getting worst day by day,hais...just want to do something to make him happy,fri going to bring him to see doctor,just feel tat i had never being a good son,after my mother had gone,i had never talk to him,go out with him,just lock myself in the room n wait for him to open my door...I dont want to lose my father,or anyone,but i know everyone have a time,when the time up,they will have to go...so i have to do as much as i can to make him happy,be mature,grow stronger to take care of the house,have better knowledge so tat i can earn more money to get a good doctor to heal him...
After tat went home,watch tv with my dad,then went out with my friends n their classmate,i was late cos i just want to spend more time with him,today whole day just no mood,will smile will laught as a guy have to be strong so tat he can protect his love one,so just only can cry in the inside,really feel tat i m a dumb ass,y i so late then change!!! last time i really is an ass hole,so wat i had a broke up,i shouldnt fight or querrl with my dad n cause his illness grew,now from one illness grew to another,then grew to another,i also dont know how many illness he have,just because to fed us,chong work here n there then had not enough rest,dont even have enough eat...wat i can do? i no longer want to wear rings or make my hair into something weird,as he dont like,so i try to stop wat i did last time,change the way i talk...
wat a father wish best for his son,is the best for him...wat a father want his son to be,is the best tat he can do n be...wat a father want from his son,a true heart tat love him...
I alway let him down,in badminton n study i had never done or even try my best in the past,he buy watever thing he think i will like,in the end i just throw a side,like shirt,bags n pants,every father's day i dont even remember even his birthday,i only draw or sms him happy birthday thank u every last min which is just for the sake of not getting scolded by my family...hais,watever he want,wish,i had never done,till now then i try to do n go for it
I dont even,ever think of having another stead liao,as it will just cause me to step into hell,as the time have not come for me to have a mate,wat is most important is to do the best of the best tat i can be to make my dad happy...
After we meet,we went to watch movie,the dont know wat meat balls fall from the sky,the show again is about father n son,hais...after tat went to walk walk,then went somewhere which i now really dont want to go to,which is "city hall"...reached there chat with my friend about his break up thing,then almost forget about others...then we walk walk awhile then i pai my friend play game,others go shopping to find another friend stead's gift,after tat went to eat,i think i was too tired ba,as it suddenly my body here pain there pain,was like people hitting my mouth sia,pain till siao,then i played my game then was like no emotion the,really too tired liao la,after tat went home trying to sleep but my mouth too pain so cant sleep,then now i remember something,i forget tat my bottle is with one of my friend's classmate bag diao sia...was fun,was funny,but i just feel i m at another space watching the fun,nvm maybe because of the problem then i cant enjoy,then too tired...hais when then can have job???
I m sorry to my friends n their classmate if i too emo or tired or watever...
