Tuesday, July 21, 2009 at Tuesday, July 21, 2009
lol yesterday i got more sick...cos of lack of sleep lol...vomit in sch dont know hw many time,plus yesterday i had N lvl oral wth?! but lucky,i never feel like vomit when i having oral lol...lol be4 de exam start my friend ask me wat happen,then i say i nt feeling well keep on vomitting,then lol then she say hw many month liao lol...ok i know it nt funny lol...after oral went to find her,sian till...ok i say this one last time,i care u,i worry u,is nt because i like u or love u as i have another person in my mind...is just dont want to see u my friend to walk de wrong path...if u really havent read de sms i send u,i repeat here...n this is de last week i m helping yr mother...if de problem still cant solve then i m sry..."anyway it 4 yr own gd,u nw dont understand,when u grow up then u will know hw de pain is feel like,so stop being an ass hole n listen to yr mother be4 tat thing get worst n which is i cant stop it...if u think tat yr friend is alway giving u de right way,i m sry but de ans is no,as they had never had any exp. be4...if my friend have serious problem tat i cant help or cant solve,i will just ask them to cheer up n look at de bright side n be postive rather than i say thing which cant help them n cause their problem worst...or ask them to talk to their family,ok i know everyone will never find their family when they have problem,as they will scare their parent scold them n band them from going out n lock their freedom,or they scare their parent will go to their sch n make them ps...i understand this as i also a kid,but wat is wrong with tat???telling yr family n get lock up just 4 awhile also will nt die...is better than ps awhile than to solve de problem by yrself in de wrong way n in de end had to cause so much problem n get yrself hurt which also need yr family to help u is it stupid??? so just get yr ass up n talk to yr family about tat problem rather than sit there n wait 4 death...i tell u wat,only yr family will give u de right way n they will never hurt...even u cant take wat yr family say or do,ok i understand tat kind of feeling which is they care too much...ok they care so much is just one reason,they love u...so wat if they hit u,everyone had get hitted be4! so dont think only u r de worst...oya u know wat,u think they hit u is 4 fun??? but i dont think so,like who de hell will want to hit their own fresh 4 fun??? if they dont care u,wat is de 4 looking 4 so many people spent so many hour to search 4 u,just to ask u to go home...i understand hw u feel,n wat r u thinking,as i went through all this be4...but i had learn wat is wrong,so stop being stupid n listen to yr family,dont be dumb,i dont want thing to get worst...i m nt lying,it all true...this is all wat i can say to u,choice is yrs,life is yrs,so i cant force u to listen...so choose yr own way carefully as there is no way turning back,once u go wrong,u will be 4ever be there...as i know hw it feel like,to go de wrong way n i cant turn back,even i changed everything is too late!!! i m sick n tried already,i had got fever just cos of yr bloody running away from home,n nw another problem dame u...i m tried,as i had being doing star 4 two days without sleeping n nt eating 4 three days,inside my room chong n chong until my hand dame pain can,i only come out when it time 4 church...other time just inside chong n chong,ok i have bath n drink water...lol in de end my body cant take it anymore,yesterday faint,today start eating liao,but still having headach lol,but as long can make "her" happy n "she" like it is worth lol...lol it time 4 u again dumb,u can dont trust me,but never ever dont trust yr family...i m done here,so want or dont want to be friend up to u...oya be4 we go back to like last year or two years ago,u live yr own life i live my own life,just one last thing,if u r thinking of running away from home again,i suggest u to get yr ass sitted at home!!! as escaping is nt a way to solve de problem dumb!!! it will just lead u to a dead end which u have no way to go but stay there 4ever...i dont wish to see this happening to u...if u think yr family is unfair,i tell u wat,de world is much more unfair,no one will care wat bloody ass hole u r,they will just say u r out n nothing more,n u cant do anything!u can be watever fool nw,but let me tell u,only yr family will scold u as they care...no one will care u want die or wat sia,they will just walk away...so just stop being a bloody stupid fool n change yr bloody brainless thinking n temper...ok nw coming to yr nw de problem which is a problem i never face be4,ok it quite a very serious matter...really i tell u nt all guy will be like me,will say NO to tat kind of thing!!! ok there r still quite a num will say no too,but stop hurting yrself,n become a bitch dame it...if u really say want do those kind of thing with other guy,i dont know wat will happen ya,as i dont really know guy tat much...tat y i sometime hate guy,which make me nt gay yay...ok it nt playing time...ok i do know wat will happen,i do can do de same thing to u dumb,but i didnt as i know u have feeling,u just want someone to care u tat all...u dont really have to do those kind of thing to let a guy to like u!!! but i only can say,if u really nw found a new guy n start a bgr with him,i only can say it will nt last,as we r still young dumb...we still dont know wat is outside de world!!! even u all last till age 20plus,u all still will break off,so dont waste yr bloody first time to a guy which is nt yr mr right!!! ok i know it really ps,as everyone will think u r a bitch or watever,but i know u dont mean it n u r nt,u just want someone to love u to care u,is just tat simple...just get this crazy idea off yr mind!!! so wake up n stop being a fool,to let those idiot beast out n hurt u,n throw u aside after they r tried of u!!! i bloody hell dont want to see tat happen man!!! u have brain right,u can think right,so use it!!! God give u a brain to think of postive side n right thing,nt all those stupid love story or stupid drama!!! use yr brain nw,even u this 13 or 14 years never ever use it in de right way,use it dumb ass,n u will find yrself in de right path de right way of life!!! ok i know,something i said dont make sense or watever,but if u can understand some part,u still have hope...only yr family will love u more than anyone else on earth,only yr family will care u more than anyone on earth...they scold u they hit u,is just dont want u to go de wrong side,ok sometime they say wat dont make any sense,but if u listen clearly carefully...u will understand,if u still cant understand is just simply mean u r dumb or u r nt listening carefully!!! so just stop having a crazy idea of yr family is wrong n u r right!!! ok yr family do sometime do wrong,everyone do wrong!!! so if they r wrong just say peacefully to them,n nt shout or watever rubbish thing u do to yr family...ok to u n everyone,i know i m just a 16years old kid,with no exp. no nothing...watever i say or nag maybe it all rubbish to u...but it all wat i learn from my past n from others!!!which made me changed,understand life,as i know run away,die or pretent dont know anything cant solve anything man!!! everyone have problem,face it,n think of de postive side...n thing will go well..."
hais i can nag so many thing to her,yet i myself also have problem lol...but i face it,"she" like someone else liao,i wish "her" happy,i wish "she" can be with de guy "she" like...as long "she" happy i happy lor...lol tear dry up,but pain n hurt still remain...nvm 4get it...just wish "her" happy lol...ok i know a bit blur,de "" is de person i love lol...hais 4get it...no matter wat i say no use anymore...hais have to 4get her faster,as i love her,only made her fan...but so strange i never sms n call her at all,only her birthday then sms her n call her yet i still will feel pain lol...weird weird de lol...nvm no time to care this anymore...but hear tat she nt happy this few days ya...hais i cant fight anymore,i dont even want to fight as it cause me end up like this...dame it...just want to know wat happen...i will try my best to help...if i cant help,i will see whether i can make her happy even i dont get near her...sian pretent never see "u" very painful sia...hais...
anyway,jun xiang u can be worry free liao,i will never bully u anymore!!! u r my bestest friend!!! i love u,as friend ya
