Monday, July 6, 2009 at Monday, July 06, 2009
i m seriously leaving this word "LOVE",as there is nothing more happily than seeing my father laught...there is no relationship more painful seeing my father being hurt...even throught i cant see u cry cant see yr pain but i can feel it...seeing u like this make my heart pain...even throught we never had any chatting or playing together since de day u r lonly...but i know wat r u thinking i know hw u feel...4 u i m going to chong my study to sucess n make u proud...n never hurt u again...as everytime i give u see my stupid poor result,yr heart is so pain till nothing can compare...de past had gone,as i dont feel anything in de past getting poor result...but till tonight i gave u see de poor result,u did nt say anything but i know wat u want to say...u never show any feeling,but i know hw u feel...as i feel de same way...i feel ashame,i feel hurt...i m also sick of seeing all this going to pass de result...is this father n son mind connection???seriouly i had never because of u,i cried cos of seeing u hurt...even hw cold u treat me...i still love u my father...seeing u working so hard just to feed us n never had a gd rest even it holiday...u alway thinking about us,n never think about yrself first...when i had a break up in relationship,u r alway there supporting me...helping me to stand up again...even i throw temper at u,u alway give in...time really pass so fast,we had nt sit down n chat 4 10to12years liao,still remeber de last time u play n chat with me when i m k1,u disturb me studying math n we started to play n play until tried we sit down on yr bed n chatted about alot of crap...tat time was really so fun...but after tat my grandfather passed away u had became very depressed...n u alway querrl with mother...soon u all break up...n i had never go out of my room...cos i m just hoping u would knock my door n chat with me...everynight i can make u laught n make yr bad day off...i really so hope to sit down n have a nice chat with u...but yet u didnt as we both r de same...waiting 4 each other...father like son...but yet i had one thing nt same like u...mature...no matter wat happen u can very cool down n settle thing...even yr study really very bad...but u have a very kind heart...we never chat yet i know so much about u...but do u know me???i think yes,u do...as no matter hw i change...i m still yr son...no matter hw old i grow...i m stil a kid to u...so worry me care me...even i dont get use to it...still do it...make me feel tat u care about me...i really hope i do can say this to u i alway wanted to say to u but just cant get de chance"i love u my father,u had did so much 4 me,nw is de time 4me to repay u...cos i hate to owe people thing...n i hate de most is people being hurt cos of me..."so hope i really can say it to u one on one face to face as i m shy to say it when there is alot of people...i m sry alway throwing temper here n there,making trouble n disrepect u...but u alway had to clear all this thing 4 me...but nw i grow up liao,i will clear it 4 myself so dont worry if my heart is broken...nw just one thing to do is stop dreaming n chong my study...n forget this stupid word"BGR"as i have enough love,God love,family love n friend care...i will stop crying n move on...to see yr smile n yr laughter,my father!it all word from my heart...it nt just word but action...trust in me as watever i say i will do it...
