Saturday, June 20, 2009 at Saturday, June 20, 2009
lol today actally didnt go church but in de end had cos just want to go but dont know y had something tried to stop me to go like keep on making me to give reason to dont go but i shut down my com n went to bath n go to church lol...i took de cab down with my sis lol de driver was so funny n kind lol we chatted about singapore road then found out tat there r more than 2 high way lol cos never take bus around or walk around singapore then my world is so small...
it had being so long,it time to warm up again,it time to put my head in de game,de game of life...
dreaming over 4 about 4month going 5month,things had starting to change,my life,my character,my thinking,my action,my feeling...it all starting to get better or worst still nt sure cos of something really never change at all,it de regurtness inside of me which still stay strong in me...it still inside go around n around replaying over n over again it hurt it pain but wth y m i suffing all this bull shit...it just cos of wat...it just want wat...
just needed a chance to prove it change,just needed forgiveness from someone...
changed from gd to bad bad to gd but it just cant be seen it just can be notice?
crying over n over again regurting wat had being done but there r just no respon...
just remeber a story from a book
which cause me to manage my anger...it was quite a long story
There was a family with just a father n a son,de father was a wood cutter n de son was a 10years old kid.The kid had a very bad temper cos of wanting his father attention,so he fighted n bullying other kid everyday,which cause all the teacher cant stand him n called his father.When de kid went home he saw his father carrying two big cardboard.His father placed one at de backyard n another one he placed in de store room.His father gave him a box of pin n said :"son i want u to pin a pin into de cardboard whenever u lose yr temper but when u control yr temper u only can take out one pin each day," de kid just nod his head.The next day,de kid lose his temper 4 10time n so he listen to his father he pin 10 pin into de cardboard...but day by day went,there was nt enough space 4 him to pin anymore.So he told his father about it n his father told him tat he had to control his temper in order to take out some pin...so de kid listen n control his temper n month passed all de pin was gone,de kid went into de house n told his father about this gd news tat he can control his temper without fail.The father took him to de cardboard n said:"u do can control yr temper nw,but look at de hole in de cardboard u can never make de cardboard de same again once u pin it."de kid cried:"so wat can i do to make de person i hurt to dont hate me?" The father smiled n said:"forgiveness."Next day,de kid went around de whole sch n asking 4 de person he bullyed or fight with,for forgive.Everyone did forgive him.He went home happily n told his father about it,then his father bring him back to de backyard again de cardboard was a whole new cardboard without a hole at all.He asked his father y did he changed de cardboard,his father ans:"cos u had being forgive which mean it a new start so de old cardboard i had threw away mean tat let de past passed n start a new with this brand new cardboard but rember dont do de same mistake."n so de kid had learn his mistake n changed his life...
i do had change n learn my mistake but y there isnt forgiveness?
